"Nguva yokutanga ndakarega kusvuta, ndaive nemakore 24 ..."
Kubva Leslie:
Nguva yokutanga ndakarega kusvuta, ndaive nemakore 24. Ndakanga ndichigara muVancouver uye ndaida kuva mutambikadzi. Ndakanga ndichidzidza dzimba paBreck Academy uye ndangobva ndapedza ukama hwemakore mashanu nerudo rwangu rwekutanga rwechokwadi. Ndakanga ndichinyanya kunetseka kubvira ndichiri kuyaruka, asi 'zvirwere zvinotambudza' zvaive zvitsva panguva iyoyo, uye kwakanga kusina tsvakurudzo dzakawanda kana mabhuku aripo.
Chiremba wangu panguva iyoyo akanga asingazivi kuti nei ndakachengeta hyperventilating, kuongorora uye kunyatsotya nguva yakawanda, asi kunyanya mumapoka. Akanditumira kune imwe nyanzvi yemapapu sezvo ini ndiri an asthmatic uye akafunga kuti vaviri ava vaiva nehukama. Kunze ndakaenda kumakiriniki emapiriniki nokuda kwe-X-rays uye zuva rinonakidza rokufungidzira uye kufambisa.
Kiriniki yaive neyoyo yakavhenganiswa nean antiseptic kunhu uye yera yekurwara inokurwisa iwe paunofamba nepamukova weipi chipatara. Asi izvi zvakanga zvakasiyana. Imba neimba yekurindira yakazadzwa nevanhu, kunyanya varwere, vakapararira mumakamuri ese mune dzakasiyana-siyana zvehutano nekufamba. Paiva nevanhu vazhinji pamusoro pekufambidzana nevatambi, dzimwe dzaive dzakabatanidzwa kune matanki eokisijeni, kufema kwavo kwakashanda uye zvishoma. Kunyange zvakadaro, vamwe vakagara vakaputika mumaguruvhiri. Maziso avo akatarisa kwandiri pamusoro pekusava nechinokanganisa chechido.
Hatitombofungi nezvekufema kusvikira yava kuoma uye tinofanira kuisa pfungwa pazviri.
Vazhinji vedu tinozvitora zvishoma. Kupisa. Breath of Life. Izvo zvakajairika, zvakasikwa, uye zvakanyanya, zvinokosha zvikuru apo tinofanira kurwisana kuti tive nazvo. Kwakanga kune vanhu vane emphysema, COPD , uye tracheotomies vaidzidza kutaura kuburikidza. Handina kuzviziva ipapo, asi nechokure-vazhinji vavo vaidziya.
Ndakagara ndakanyarara mukona, ndichimirira nguva yangu. Ndakatorwa ne-wheelchair kuenda ku-X-Ray mumba, rwendo rwandakaona risina musoro - ndichifunga kuti ndakanyatsogona muviri - uye zvinotyisa zvishoma. Kana mumwe wenyu akambowana chirwere chepapu x-ray kana chero x-ra ray panyaya iyi, unobvumirana kuti haisi kufamba kunonakidza.
Ndizvo mazamu angu akadonhedzwa (uye kana iyo isiri shoko, mushure mechiitiko chakadai) - chinofanira kunge chakanaka kuva!) Zvakaomirirana nefiriji inotonhora iyo inofanirwa kunge yakaitwa mufiriji, ndakanga ndasara ndiri ndoga ndakakomberedzwa nekushaya simba uye ndakaudzwa kuchengetedza kufema kwangu apo isu isu ticherechedza takatsvaira mune imwe imba kuti tiise bhodhi iyo inobvumira mhepo iyi kunyatsoongorora mumunhu wangu. Sezvakanaka uye zvinotapira sezvakaita mukoti, ndainzwa ndakaratidzwa pachena, ndichitonhora uye ndakatya. Vanhu vari mune imwe kamuri vakanga vanyatsondizunungusa. HAPERE fodya yakanga yakakodzera IYE.
Mushure mezvo, pandakanga ndava kuda kupinda tekisi yangu - ndakatarisa chimwe chendaneti yangu ye cigarette. Nezviso zvekutambudzwa uye zvakaneta zvevaya vanonetseka kune imwe neimwe uye kufema kwekare kuchiri kutsva mupfungwa dzangu - Ndakarasa kunze. Ndakanga NDI. Hapana chaikosha icho, uye zvirokwazvo haafaniri kuripa icho! Chii chandakanga ndichiri kufunga? NDOITA!
Mazuva matatu akatevera akazadzwa nehope , kutuka (ini ndaifarira chikamu ichocho, zvakafanana nekucheneswa kwehupfu) uye musoro.
Ndakanga ndiine zvishuvo zvino uye nguva dzose, zvikurukuru zvichibva kune masangano , asi chimiro chekliniki chakanga chisishamisi pakukwanisa kwayo kumisa chero humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe humwe hunoita kuti huvepo. Ndinongoramba ndisingabvumiri kuenda ikoko. Ndakanga ndisiri musvuta. Ndakanga ndiri AMAZED uye ndaifara kuti zvakanga zviri nyore sei! Ndezvipi zvaiitisana nharo pamusoro pacho, ichi chakanga chiri chikamu chekeki ?!
Muzvokwadi-kana ini ndaida chaizvo, ndaigona nyore nyore kungova nharo kana maviri uye kusiya zvakare. Kunhuhwira kwayo kwaive kwakasviba, zvisinei, uye ini ndakanga ndisingatsvaki kuisa zvinhu izvozvo zvakare. Mhinduro dzangu dzekuedza dzakadzoka zvakare, mweya wangu wepimma (chaiwo) wakavandudzwa zvakanyanya, uye ini chaizvo NDAKAPEREKWA uremu nokuti ndakanga ndava kushanda zvakanyanya seusingaiti.
Ndakanga ndisati ndaziva kuti simba rakawanda rinopisa rakabuda mumunhu. Mushure mokubata nekufunganya (izvo zvakanga zvisingasviki seusina kusvuta, zvakare), ndaive munzira yangu inofadza.
Zvadaro chimwe chinhu chinoparadza chakaitika. Mukadzi akanga atora humwe hutano hwakanaka hwekuita amai shure kwekunge ini ndapera, akazova akaremara kwazvo. Mumwe munhu anoramba achiputa, Dorothy akanga asina kumbobvira agamuchira pfungwa yekurega. Akanga aita chirwere chakaipa gore rakapfuura, akanga aita kuti ribvise, uye iye zvino raive rakagadziriswa mumuviri wake wose. Vakamupa vhiki.
Sezvo akanga ari mune rimwe guta, ndaiziva pakarepo kuti ndinofanira kumhanyira kwaari uye kumupa kuvonga kwangu uye rudo. Kunyange zvazvo takanga taputsa, mukana wangu wekare aida kuuya neni - aiziva Dorothy zvakare, uye aizivawo kutya kwangu kubhururuka. Akanga ari kusvuta. Nguva pfupi vasati vasvika tekisi kuti vatitore kuenda kunhandare yemhepo, ndakamukumbira fodya.
'Imwe chete' , ndakakumbirisa, 'Handichazotangazve, handisati ndambofarira, zvinongova izvozvi zvinotambudza, munoziva?'
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